May 2012
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Feels good being a normal teenager for once
Oh I am so silly. Going to the beach tonight and I decided to take a shower. Oh well, we probably won’t get in the water anyway, so I’m debating between swim shorts or normal shorts… decisions decisions.
So today I bonded in the car with Smurf and (mainly) Tevin while we sung Switzerland by Bison. Also, skipped spanish to sit in ToK, and tomorrow is a half day.
stormofbutterflies asked: Hey Alley! Just thought I'd say hi! Saw you in the hall and you looked happy. Anyway~ I'm glad your life is looking up! Best of luck to you!
I just want a normal, nonsexual conversation with another teenager.
dreamongood:
I’ve been thinking. Actually, I’m always thinking. I think I think too much. But then again, thinking keeps me occupied. That’s why I’m rarely ever bored. Right now I’m thinking of what to write. But I’m thinking about other things. Sometimes I think so much to the point where it feels like I’m not thinking at all.
I think, that maybe if you were here you would understand why I love this.
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Oh, oh Switzerland
Okay, first week of summer I’m getting dreads. I can’t take this. I want them. They’re beautiful. Case closed.
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So I’m shallow and materialistic and jealous because you’re happy and I don’t know what I’m doing anymore, but I’m gonna eat a cookie maybe, and try to feel better.
I need to shut up and go to sleep.
Dear Ex-Whatever,
I heard you have a girlfriend now. It doesn’t really bother me like it would have before, but from all the time we spent together last autumn, I knew you never wanted to be that guy, committed, especially this close to graduating. I had hoped to be the one you would change that for, but now I’m glad I wasn’t. Even now that you’re with her, you’re still the pretentious...
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“This is why I like you. You just want to hold my hand.”
I remember back when I was the only sane one in my family. God, was it this easy to break me?
It’s easy to lie to others when you’re lying to yourself. It’s only when I get worked up that things start to slip. My emotions got out of control. I need to remember to keep balance. This has been a stressful weekend.
My words aren’t pretty, but do I at least get my point across? Probably not.
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Art Piece Idea
Based on the feelings possessed by ‘white people’ who are put down when possessing any sort of cultural pride from whatever their nationalities may be or just white pride in general. The idea of wanting to be someone else, someone of a different race because other races have faced ‘actual problems’ and whatnot.
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I realize the world would be much more pleasant if it existed the way I imagine it does.
I suppose it’s time for sleep. Tomorrow I have to take a standardized test, though after that I can come straight home and nap work on everything I’ve procrastinated on. Mixed feelings about everything. Typical teenage stuff I guess.
But tonight I really want weed, a truck, and the stars. I’ll have to be satisfied with my comforter and a wonderful pillow.
Guess what.
It’s officially Monday morning.
I always love that feeling, when you look at the clock and realize the day has changed.
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Dear Fandoms,
I apologize that I am not so avid a fan as I could be. I apologize that I don’t geek out as often as I could. I apologize that sometimes I miss book releases, episode premieres, and the first weekend showing at the movies. Could you guys please give me time to catch up before blowing the internet up with spoilers? Please?
I’m serious, I say 3 days for tv shows, 2 weeks...
A Textual Conversation Yesterday Via Mobile...
Him: How are you?
Me: Still kinda sick-ish
Him: Oh that sucks. I was in the neighborhood and had wanted to hang out.
Me: Yeah, that does poo. Maybe some other time.
Him: Well, do you have any pics you could send me?
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What the hell?
Females confuse me.
You suffer from depression So you sleep around with like 10 guys Get gonorrhea Get pregnant Date like 3 guys while still pregnant Have the baby Suddenly suffer from postpartum depression And then become a lesbian
Although, I must admit, males are equally confusing at times.
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Got my laptop fixed. I can finally watch porn again.
“I’m praying it was not at all pretend I need you now To help pick me up from off the ground”
Sometimes I feel like the world is so far away, and I don’t know how to get back to being myself again. I feel distant. This will pass, hopefully soon.
inchesgiven:
Hey, here’s a magic trick: give me two bottles of wine, and I can make all of my friends disappear.
You know you’re pmsing like a bitch when you flip out over people taking the batteries out of your xbox controller. Oh god. Why couldn’t I be born a guy?
I don’t know what to do about this. How did I think my happiness was attached to something so superficial?
My friends hold these get-togethers/parties every few months, almost exclusively Hampton Christian kids, then me and Cody and his sister, and this one guy from Bethel. Somehow, me and the guy from Bethel always hit it off and wind up curled up together on the couch, but then we don’t talk again until the next party-thing. Well, it was no different last night, everyone joking we would be...
Anonymous asked: I thought you had shut down this blog.
I am drinking juice straight from the carton and nobody even cares. We watched Children of the Corn : Genesis, and I felt so out of the loop since I haven’t seen any of the other ones. We lost 6-0 today, but the coach said I play well. I feel like he knows when I’m really close to breaking and need the pick-me-up. Math exam wasn’t too bad. Daddy made bacon and tater tots for...
I’m at this point where I really just want to ask you out, but I’m being told to wait because of soccer and everything. Oh gosh, this sucks.
Only four more days, two games and two practices.
There is a downside to pushing your limits and experiencing new things. I learned this as I gagged on a sushi roll in a Chinese restaurant. Something about raw fish and rice…
It saddens me a bit that I’ll never be ‘cultured’.
meeeps:
I really hope all of this is worth it. The effort I put into school, and soccer and my relationship. I hope all of this hard work benefits me in the end and these lost hours of sleep will easily be replaced when I’m doing something amazing.
Gosh I can only hope.
Amen to that sistah
So ummm… I think you’re gorgeous.
KK? Bye.
I am so done with school.
So… I started during our game yesterday.
And I wasn’t the first person pulled out.
Then I was made ball girl for the second half.
But still, I started~
That is all.
April 2012
12 posts
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What is this ‘social life’ they speak of? I just spent twelve hours playing Knights of the Old Republic for xbox.
Well this kind of poos.
I’ll spend the night watching movies on Netflix, perhaps until my daddy get home. It’s alright. A peaceful end to the day.
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“I’m counting UFOs
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment I am...”
– Incubus - I Wish You Were Here
I’m on the border between whether I want to really try super hard to get better at soccer so my senior year I can be a b.o.s.s.
or if I just want to quit playing after this season and make extra time for a job, having a social life, homework, etc.
Oh the choices I’m never prepared for.
I need to like legit get my homework done so I can hang out with Le Meems and others. Why am I so unproductive?
No one else is home. I can blare Snow Patrol and not be harassed for it.
The little pleasures.
